madesu

   Some of you maybe feel lil bit confused when hear 'maduse'. It's like an Indonesian slang word heheh. You can't find this word in Indonesia Dictionary. Madesu is the abbreviation of 'Masa Depan Suram'. Suram is such miserable. So,if we translate it properly,'Masa Depan Suram=Miserable Future Life'. But it's not exactly the meaning. When you say 'madesu' it means you have no passion to do something or you think that something is really hard for you.
   And i feel like madesu now :(. It's because of my college stuff. I'm a sophomore. My major is computer science. I'm in my fourth term and in this term,the colleger must choose their specialization. The specialization are Networking,Cisco,Database,Oracle,Multimedia System,Artificial Intellegent, and Software Engineering. Maybe,im gonna choose database. But,honestly, i dont know why im gonna choose this :( . I dont even know well about each specialization :(. And i have to choose it two weeks later. It's kinda hard cos im afraid of the wrong choice and it will affect my career later :(.
    Yeaaaaaah i'm 'galau' and feel like madesu rite now. Is it my calling if i choose database or it's just my temporal desire?